I notice something about myself lately. I tend to make these discoveries from time to time like how I noticed that I'm a huge fan of change.
People who limit themselves...

My question is... why?

My younger brother told me that he doesn't want to leave the house until he's like 25.. about. It almost turned into an argument because I don't believe his reasoning was good enough.. in fact the reasons he was giving me weren't good at all. He tells me that because the economy is so bad that he won't even leave till then. I understand if he actually tries to leave and then say its possible he won't leave until he's 25.. but no, it seemed to me as if he doesn't even want to TRY until he's 25. He's limiting himself.. being so dependent on my dad. Yes.. understandable to have shelter.. understandable that everything is put right in front of you without lifting a finger like food that your father brings to you almost every night. But what happens when you turn 25? What if you realize that you don't want to grow up and take some responsibility? What if you decide that you want to remain bound to the only place you're so familiar with because you know it's safe and you're not alone? What if you decide to never take a chance? You never know until you try and your father or mother won't be there to baby you for the rest of your life. Give it some thought.

I picture my future alone. Not lonely, don't mix up the two words. I think I'll feel a lot more accomplished if I do everything by myself. It's good to get a helping hand but it's never good to depend on it.

One of my closest friends is considered anorexic. I don't believe so. I mean, she has lost a lot of weight compared to when I first met her. She had an ass.. and some curves that would make Jessica Alba jealous. She's very small now and frail. I hate it when people pick on her about her weight and how skinny she is. She's still the perfect little figure that everyone wants. Every time she comes into my house she looks into the fridge for food. Now... I'm not sure if she's blind or something.. but every time I look in there, I'm pretty sure I see so much food I can make.. Does she see it? <_< She asks me if I have food at home and I tell her, "Yeah I do. o.o"
Her diet consists of water, banana shakes, potatoes, tuna fish, and small pieces of bread. An occasional sandwich here and then... Okay let me throw in not even an eight of her meal at Applebees. She complains about how hungry she always is but when she eats.. it's ridiculous how little fits in her stomach. Every time I suggest something to eat to her she comes up with some excuse not to eat it. I don't believe she's anorexic but I highly believe she is far from healthy. She doesn't realize the more she limits herself to the large variety of food that her stomach's going to shrink.. it's horrible. Yeah McDonalds is bad and chips may be ridiculously fattening.. but damn she won't even go near a cookie. <_< Not even homemade... and what's her reasoning? That she might break out?

-_-"

I'm pretty sure I eat all the damn sweets in the world and my face doesn't look like pizza. Acne.. there are way too many causes but I believe the main one is your mind. Don't limit yourself to any type of food because you're paranoid of its effects.

Eat a damn cookie. T.T

Haha, this is an old one. It doesn't bother me anymore and I don't know why I ever made such a fuss about it... but my friends used to never wanna leave Staten Island. I'm not picking on them now I'm just showing examples of limitation. I'm someone who just loves adventure and I would go anywhere new. I considered myself put down by a ball and chain. I was part of a circle of friends who loved to do stuff in the island. Which was generally nice because the island does have its spots. Because I was older and had more privileges than the rest of them, I suggested the city a lot. Unfortunately, some of their parents never agreed to it and we had to stay in this puny island doing the same thing we normally do. If it wasn't my friends who disagreed, it was their parents. There was no winning. I had to stay with them because.. well.. they were my closest friends. I was attached.
The city.. I heard many excuses not to go. It did anger me many times but it mainly made me sad that because I had such a limited number of friends with a limited number of privileges so I had limited places and things to do.

So it was the main reason I left now that I think about it. Who am I best friends with now?
Nobody. I am content.

I wonder how far my horizon will go.

Hahaha then there's a friend I met at work.. who doesn't even want to STEP IN to the island. So afraid that there's nothing to do. This is where I actually take my island experiences and put them to use. So no matter where you go, there's adventure as long as it's new... as long as there's change... as long as you're limitless.

Then there's the little things like finding stuff to do on the pc or other hobbies. People complain how bored they are on the computer. They complain about it on Facebook or Myspace. Even I find myself doing it sometimes.. so then it brings me to this, if you're bored then you're boring. I'm pretty sure there's a lot of shit to do on the pc. You're just limiting yourself to Facebook. There's more to life than people, my friend. Play bejeweled or something... Learn some creativity. I spend hours on my laptop because I find things to do on it. What about music? Who the fuck wants to listen to reggaeton all damn day? It's the same beat every time. Who wants to hear the same mario sounds listening to Dragonforce all the time? This is why I listen to such a large variety of music. Who the fuck wants to listen to everything in English? I have Celtic music on my Ipod and even Japanese music. Just because it's not English doesn't mean it's bad. Who the hell wants to always hear someone's voice? Why not appreciate the instrumental themes? Who wants to listen to happy music all day? Why not put some sadistic crap like Charlie Clouser. *cough*

The stickers on my phone wither away but hey, it means I get to put the other ones to use.

Put these words into your vocabulary:
Adventure
Creativity
Limitlessness
Chance

By the way, I made myself a mango strawberry and banana milk shake.. it looks like it has stretchmarks now that I look at it. Maybe it's telling me something. <_<

to0dles.