I didn't think I would have to be the one to sit throughout my rabbit's death. But I was.. because Alfonso doesn't care and my dad wouldn't know what to do...
Anyway.. my dad went to feed the rabbits but Bunny didn't jump up to attack the bowl like he normally does with Mango. My dad asked me what could be wrong.. I honestly knew it was his time. I let him lay on my lap for a few hours and he wouldn't move. I let him lay on a high chair with a blanket for cushion. He was fine and dandy but just seemed to weigh himself down.
He wouldn't eat or move. He was inactive.. wouldn't budge. I had some sort of hope though.. I tried to feed him some watermelon and he stood up and ate. I was thinking it may have just been his malnutrition that caused him to be so gloomy. But no.. it was definitely something else.
By the way, it's a coincidence that the movie I saw yesterday, Grave of the Fireflies, related to what I was going through. I never thought about it until now. Seita fed his young sister watermelon just before she died (of course he didn't know she was going to) I fed Bunny a number of pieces of watermelon.. he ate it all but at the end.. just weighed himself right back down.
Took a shower.. it's 8am in the morning.. I go back downstairs to check up on him and he's in the middle of the floor laying down. I took him upstairs and laid him on a blanket on my bedroom floor. By the way he laid and his dilated pupils... I can tell there was no hope. I couldn't take him to the vet at 2/3am in the morning... nor did I have money or a car to go to one at 8.. I had to sit up and watch my rabbit die. He laid sideways.. he violently shook as if he were a fish out of water and I held his head while gently petting it with my fingers wishing it would just end as quick as possible. He was in pain and he was struggling. I was crying. This rabbit was literally dying on my hands and I couldn't go to sleep and wake up to a dead rabbit, no... I had to be there.... He squealed one last time before going. I cried hysterically as I cradled the furry thing in my arms. It was painful.. but not as painful as his death.
A pain in the ass this rabbit was.. a real big pain... but I still cried.

RIP Bunny. ;_;
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